Hello!
In the words of the great Ronan Keating - "life is rollercoaster, just gotta ride it" and by god, my life has been quite an interesting ride recently.
Before I go into the heavy stuff, for old time's sake have let's kick this post off with a good old fashioned OOTD!
Okay okay, so this is actually a fairly oldish set of outfit pictures - well a month or so old but in this world of social media, that is basically a #ThrowbackThursday. I've been distracted ever so slightly on the blogging front recently but more on that drama later.
Since having surgery in October, I've been avoiding wearing jeans for a couple of reasons. Mainly for comfort but I also haven't been feeling overly body positive. You probably know from past posts that I have a love/hate relationship with jeans. I'm convinced most high street shops don't seem to understand that some people can have big bums/thighs but small waists. It makes jean shopping a very stressful task for me.
However, Primark surprised me with these bad boys. Soft and fit like a glove and even though Goth Emily prefers a darker colour, I am quite into this light shade.
Now before I delve into the rollercoaster that is my life, I have realised that I haven't talked about my new tattoo over on the blog.
I recently-ish went to check out the Scottish Tattoo Convention with my partner in crime (Lucie). This was my first year and I really wasn't planning to get a tattoo until I bumped into my parents and the people behind the salon they go to for their own 'ink'.
Whilst I was hanging around the Faith, Hope & Tattoo stall, a little tattoo caught my eye and as soon as it did, I knew it was the one for me.
I've been talking for ages about getting a new one and this completely fitted with the ideas I had in mind. So many people have already asked me what does it mean and why did I get it but quite simple, I like triangles, I like eyes and I am a sucker for an Illuminati design.
I got it done just after receiving bad news about my job and finding out I had to get surgery again. Getting this tattoo was a way of starting fresh again and gaining at least some control in my life.
So, let's get down to my little life ramble.
My health took a tumble once again and I also found myself being made redundant (also once again). I'd like to say I haven’t been dwelling too much in the negatives but that would be a big pack of old lies. It's been hard to keep going when it feels like everything around you is falling apart.
I've let myself fall further and further into a black hole but I am grasping at those positives. At times, they might seem very few but they are there and they are worth fighting for.
One night after a particularly bad evening of pain and emotions, I decided to write down everything that I feel is wrong with my life right now. I then wrote down all the things I want and what I need to do to rid myself of those negatives. Of course, life isn't as simple as that but it felt good to set myself some positive goals.
It has also made me realise that through all the negativity that has surrounded me, there has been silver linings popping up - opportunities I have (mainly due to this blog), my supportive family and some awesome moments that have caught me by surprise.
I touched upon this in my whole mid-twenties crisis post about how I have been feeling a little lost in life. That hasn't changed overly yet but I do feel like I am getting there. I know what I want, I just need to go out, be brave and get it.
2016 taught me that life is too short and I need to go into the world head strong and appreciate the amazing things/people I have around me.
Who knows what 2017 still has in store for me but I am ready to take whatever it throws my way!
Before I go into the heavy stuff, for old time's sake have let's kick this post off with a good old fashioned OOTD!
Okay okay, so this is actually a fairly oldish set of outfit pictures - well a month or so old but in this world of social media, that is basically a #ThrowbackThursday. I've been distracted ever so slightly on the blogging front recently but more on that drama later.
Jeans - Primak
Top - H&M
Trainers - New Look
Jacket - Primark
Necklace - Forever 21
Bag - Hallhuber
However, Primark surprised me with these bad boys. Soft and fit like a glove and even though Goth Emily prefers a darker colour, I am quite into this light shade.
Now before I delve into the rollercoaster that is my life, I have realised that I haven't talked about my new tattoo over on the blog.
I recently-ish went to check out the Scottish Tattoo Convention with my partner in crime (Lucie). This was my first year and I really wasn't planning to get a tattoo until I bumped into my parents and the people behind the salon they go to for their own 'ink'.
Whilst I was hanging around the Faith, Hope & Tattoo stall, a little tattoo caught my eye and as soon as it did, I knew it was the one for me.
I've been talking for ages about getting a new one and this completely fitted with the ideas I had in mind. So many people have already asked me what does it mean and why did I get it but quite simple, I like triangles, I like eyes and I am a sucker for an Illuminati design.
I got it done just after receiving bad news about my job and finding out I had to get surgery again. Getting this tattoo was a way of starting fresh again and gaining at least some control in my life.
So, let's get down to my little life ramble.
My health took a tumble once again and I also found myself being made redundant (also once again). I'd like to say I haven’t been dwelling too much in the negatives but that would be a big pack of old lies. It's been hard to keep going when it feels like everything around you is falling apart.
I've let myself fall further and further into a black hole but I am grasping at those positives. At times, they might seem very few but they are there and they are worth fighting for.
One night after a particularly bad evening of pain and emotions, I decided to write down everything that I feel is wrong with my life right now. I then wrote down all the things I want and what I need to do to rid myself of those negatives. Of course, life isn't as simple as that but it felt good to set myself some positive goals.
It has also made me realise that through all the negativity that has surrounded me, there has been silver linings popping up - opportunities I have (mainly due to this blog), my supportive family and some awesome moments that have caught me by surprise.
I touched upon this in my whole mid-twenties crisis post about how I have been feeling a little lost in life. That hasn't changed overly yet but I do feel like I am getting there. I know what I want, I just need to go out, be brave and get it.
2016 taught me that life is too short and I need to go into the world head strong and appreciate the amazing things/people I have around me.
Who knows what 2017 still has in store for me but I am ready to take whatever it throws my way!
Till the next time!
x
100% feel you on the jeans front!
ReplyDeleteI got made redundant at the start of the year and I've found it really tough, I have now got a job and I start next week and I know 4 months out of work isn't all that long but it really feels it when you're in it! Plus job hunting is the most soul destroying thing ever, especially when you actually NEED one! Things always happen for a reason though so there will be a much better job out there for you, I just hope you manage to find it soon x
Thank you so much lovely. It really can be so soul destroying sometimes but alas it's gotta be done!
DeleteEmily x
Love your new tattoo!
ReplyDeleteGreat post, I feel your pain when it comes to jeans - it's a conspiracy!
Thank you!
DeleteI know right, I'm at a loss on who do jeans that will fit an hourglass shape.
Emily x
good luck with what you plan to do! I've just finished uni and also feel like i'm having an (almost) mid-20s crisis with what to do with my life now! xx
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Thank you and same to you. Having a mid 20s crisis is such a weird feeling, kinda weirdly glad I am not alone in feeling like this.
DeleteEmily x